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| this may not make nesense...just writing how i feel in whatever order it comes in..
so...i've been home for a week now..and i'm leaving tomorrow night. this is the shortest amount of time i have spent at home...the next time i'll be on this computer will be another year..
so many things has changed since i've last been home..we have satellite..so i didnt kno how to work the tv., the counter and sink seems so much shorter than i remembered it, my 10 year old turtle is much bigger now, but my parents didnt even kno that its been a year since i've been home. time sure does pass by fast...
usually i get jetlagged so i always sleep really late. wat i do to keep me occupied is usually read old letters and notes that i've kept over the years. how do i still have letters that are about 8 years old? i guess i got it from my mom..always keeping things hoping that they will be in good use in the future. i just like keeping things..cuz hey..theyre memories..and i cherish them.
so..not being able to sleep tonight...i went through my notes...most of them from sharon btw  and my gosh..how much we have changed and grown. how we let the little things get to us..and how we let the smallest arguments turn into a big deal. but hey..i'm thankful for those little arguments...because it brought me closer to them now.
i'm thankful for having such great friends now..and lookin back at everything we went through together..makes me really appreciate what i have now and who i have in my life now.
i do miss those little notes we passed around in class..or sneakin in food into the classrooms..or just hanging around and 'walkin' to tap ex. now we all have our own lives, we have cars, we have jobs...wen are we goin to be able to have time to just hang out?
i'm just sad that i lost contact with almost all the people i used to write to back in the day. i have a box full of letters from about 7 different people..and now..i barely talk to any of them. i guess thats what growing up does to us..also taking into consideration that we all live in different areas if not states. i miss them tho. and i hope theyre all doing well.
i'm going to miss home. ugh..i have to go back to school..where i wont have home cooked food ready for me, where my laundry wont be done for me, and i have to pay for myself. i hate growing up. but even tho my home lets me relax and take a break from my life...at the same time..it reminds me that this is only temporary..and i need to get off my lazy butt and get back to reality.
i went to starbucks today with my sister..and their cups arent the cute holiday cups nemore! that just made me realize that holidays are really over... peppermint mocha does sound good now tho..
i havent had a family dinner with ALL my sisters there in over 2 years..theres always someone missing god damnit! i miss my sisters..i miss how we are all together and how we make my mom angry cuz we're too loud. i miss laying around..just tellin them wats goin on in my life.. i just miss them.. sigh..
6 longg hours drive to north carolina...did some great father-daughter bonding. something priceless. actually watched a whole football game with my dad today... patriots vs giants.. damnit..the patriots won. GO REDSKINS TOMORROW!
i finally got to read and finish a romance novel! i'm a sucker for romance novels..a love sap.
i miss my puppy...
i'm sad i'm leavin home..but at the same time..i just want to get the departure overwith.
i hate airplanes..it takes too damn long. cant someone invent something that can teleport me back and forth? life would be so much easier..
wat am i gonna do for 6 longgg hours on the airplane tomorrow? i need a mini dvd player..
if u made it this far...then wow! thank u for takin the time to read this. hopefully i can sleep now..
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| i dunno what has been up with me lately... i just feel so..numb sometimes....
i know whats right from wrong...
but why is it that sometimes..i just don't give a sh*t that i did something wrong?
it just really bothers me...and i don't know what to do about it..
things i've learned over the past couple days..
- i hate being forced to do things...like everyone else...but i've noticed that once someone tries to...this rage of anger just comes out of no where..and i feel like i can explode..and sometimes..i do.
- i love my freedom...i hate being limited.. again..i explode..
- i think people who post up a bunch of pics of just THEMSELVES..are very egotistical...you see yourself everyday...so... u want to see yourself even more when u look at your site? i understand if you're with a bunch of your friends..but a pic of only urself? .....
- i speak my mind a lot more now, whether if its something good or bad. i find myself speaking up in class more not caring if people think my opinions are wrong.
- i don't really know what i want from life.
i need to wake up...i need to feel something...
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Hate That I Love You Lyrics
Rihanna Featuring: Ne-Yo Lyrics
[Rihanna:]
Thats how much as I love you
Thats how much as I need you
And I cant stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for a while? (No....)
[Ne-Yo:]
You wont let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forgive (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did
[Rihanna:]
But I hate...
You know exactly what to do
So that I cant stay mad at you
For too long thats wrong
[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I dont want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that i adore you
[Rihanna:]
And i hate how much i love you boy (yeah...)
I cant stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oooh whoa..)
But I just cant let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)
[Ne-Yo:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh
[Rihanna:]
Said its not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I love you beyond the reason why
And it just aint right
[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I cant stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just cant let you go
But I hate that I love you so
[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic wont affect me
And your kiss wont make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...
[Ne-Yo:]
Yeaahhh... Oohh...
[Rihanna:]
Thats how much i love you (as much as I need you)
Thats how much as I need you (oooh..)
Thats how much I love you (oh..)
Thats how much as I need you
[Rihanna:]
And I hate that i love you soooo
And I hate how much i love you boy
I cant stand how much I need ya (cant stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just cant let you go (but I just cant let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate that I love you so.. soo.....
this is exactly how i feel......
Good song
Wo Ai Ni.
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| have u ever found out about something that just MAKES U SICK TO UR STOMACH!!!!
omg...i'm SOO grossed out......
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